I thought the concept was cool, but I didn't really put much thought into it, and it didn't seem like something I wanted to do or really had time for. So, I went through last year learning a myriad of lessons, but maybe none about a particular subject. In fact, if I had to pick a theme or a word God taught me about last year the word probably would have been trials. Haha. But, I whine enough about that here and this is a new year so I'm moving on.
At the beginning of this year, I wasn't really planning on doing a lot of soul-searching or prayer to find the "word of the year" because, well, that's a lot of work. But, God had other plans. I was riding in the car one day thinking about this idea, and I just kind of asked God, "if I was to have a word for this year, what would it be?" And immediately, the word Selah came to mind.
Now, I had heard that word before in the Bible, but I honestly couldn't even tell you where I had heard it. I didn't know what it meant, and I asked God, "are you sure? I don't have a clue what that means!" But that's all I got. Selah.
So I went home and looked it up. Apparently it's a very hard word to define. No one is really sure what it means. Great. The best definitions I found were from here. There are apparently two main definitions that can be used to describe the word Selah. The first is the idea of a pause to reflect or to praise. Selah is found most often in the Psalms, usually at the end of a Psalm, so that idea makes sense. It could have been meant for the singers to pause while the music played alone. The second definition is the idea of weighing something on a balance. Maybe Selah means to pause and reflect on an idea, and weigh that idea in your mind? Kind of like the concept of meditating? I'm not sure. I don't know where to go with this limited information.
It sounds to me like this year, this 2013, is going to be a time of waiting, of pausing, and of reflecting. Maybe He wants to teach me to slow down a little bit and just think about Him in the middle of my day. I think it's interesting that this is the year of me learning to pause, especially because if we get a foster placement this will probably turn out to be one of the busiest years of my life so far. Maybe that's the point.
So far, I've been thinking of Selah like coming up to breathe.
If 2012 was the year I felt like I was going to drown, 2013 is my year to come up for air.
It's a year to wait, expectantly, and with hope. God's going to do some big things this year, I can already feel it.